crying in the car

crying in the car sucks. especially when you're trying to drive and it's unexpected and in 5 seconds you're crying like a baby.
crying gives you frown wrinkles. crying makes your heart pound like you're gonna die. it's miserable. and it's nothing. not even a thought or anything bad happening it's just all of the sudden. tired makes you cry. nothing feels comforting except for being distracted. And being distracted is only good if there's nothing stressful about what you're doing.
If you happen to be doing anything stressful and you're trying not to cry then maybe you can't eat or something like that.
I'm a cutter upper of food. can we walk around on all our dates? I like going places. I like looking at windows and seeing it warm inside and seeing red knit over tree stumps. I like fire pits and people talking. I like secret gardens and djs and sitting in a booth in the corner. And being around someone who doesn't seem scared going into new places. I feel shy in new places. I'm shy by myself. I like quiet time. I like quiet time and walking. I like not worrying. I like warm arm around me and total temperature control.
I don't like tv lately. I like music better even sad music. I miss scooter. breathing is exhausting. it's heavy weight.